Commitment

Such a long word and such an often misspelled word.  Such a compelling word and such a word many use but not act upon.  I don’t like it.  But lately I’ve been compelled to try to do it.  It’s not that I have “commitment issues” (hahaha) it’s jus that I like choices.  Yeah, that’s all backwards.

So what is commitment ??  An agreement or pledge to do something in the future.  Some synonyms are dedication, faith, faithfulness, loyalty … ughhh and the list goes on.

And to believe that I am all about loyalty and faithfulness but yet commitment is no where within my vocabulary.  It seems as tho  commitment stretches you to another level of faith, faithfulness, and loyalty … thus not a synonym in my book.

I’ve been compelled to commitment because I do believe it’s an ingredient for love.  And yet, I do pause.  I pause because without conflict, I can say “ I agree or pledge to do this or do that” .. however, what if conflict arise ??  Will I believe in my commitment ??  Will I continue with my agreement or my pledge ?? Or will I run from it ??

Knowing me, I will run … and this isn’t your normal “I will commit” .. this is your “I will commit the rest of my life to you commit” ..

While it’s been a struggle and an ongoing progress I am committed to my relationship with Adam !!

Yikes !! I said it … ROFL !!